Taking a Moment

Last heavy post of the week, I promise. But truth be told, this year has been a bit heavy for me. Not necessarily in a bad way, just in a heavy way. Lots of changes have taken place – states, jobs, downsizing from a house to an apartment, etc.

Adding one more item to this list is my new status as a Stay At Home Wife. Let me elaborate.

 I graduated with an integrated marketing communications degree in 2009 and held a couple of marketing internships before that. After graduation one of those internships turned into a full time job, which took me down the road of sales. Unemployment took me OFF that road, and back into marketing I went. Three years and another state later, I’ve found myself feeling really unfulfilled and lacking passion for the financial industry.

I began to dread going to the office every day. I had trouble sleeping and eating (which, is kind of a big deal for me – I’m truly a natural at both of these things). I couldn’t “leave work at work”.

You see, that’s not okay with me.

I struggled with the decision to leave my good on paper, comfortable job with a decent paycheck. I knew that I didn’t have it as bad as some people, but I also knew that I didn’t LOVE what I was doing with my life. And ultimately, that argument won out.

So I’m taking some time. Time to do some soul searching. Time to really think about the direction of my life. Time to recharge.

(Photo credit to our friend, Stefan Choquette Photography)

And honestly, I’m feeling pretty awesome about it. Obviously, I plan to return to the working world as soon as I have it all “figured out”, but for now I’m enjoying having extra free time to do what I want.

So far this has consisted of: going to barre every morning, walking the dogs, networking, sometimes getting in two work outs a day (holla), organizing our apartment, looking for a new place to move next month when our lease is up, blogging, soul searching, catching up with people that I love – I talk to my sister and best friend almost daily, reading, cooking, job searching and more.

The funny thing is that I know of a handful of people who have chosen to do this too this year. Is it an epidemic of non-settlers? Have we decided that won’t spend 40 hours a week doing something that we don’t love because life’s too short?

Whatever it is, I just wanted to share this little (BIG) part of my life with you all this month. Now whatever we’re doing, let’s have a fabulous November!

The Perfect Life

Ever feel like you will “be happy” once you attain a certain goal? Whether that be getting married, losing weight, making more money, whatever. I believe that many of us think this way. For me, it was always, “When we move out of Kansas” or “when Cory gets weekends off and we can spend more time together”.

Oh, the elusive “perfect life.”

Those two things have both happened over the last year and while they have both been extremely fulfilling, our life is still not “perfect.” Don’t get me wrong, I truly love my life, I’ve just begun to let go of the illusion of perfection.

What I’ve been realizing is that no one has a perfect life. Sure, it may look flawless on the outside, but underneath the surface there is stuff that we can’t see.

This year has been full of highs and lows for us. It’s been rewarding, scary, amazing and confusing. For me, I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching and asking myself questions like, “What am I here for?” and “What I am meant to do with this life that I’ve been given?”

I’ve learned that sometimes the best laid plans don’t always fulfill you like you thought they would. And that life is not meant to be planned out meticulously, but it is to be appreciated, savored and lived. There is a lesson in each situation and it’s our job to figure out what that is, while keeping ourselves open to unknown opportunities to come.

So the conclusion I’ve come to? Life is messy and it is beautiful. Most importantly, life is what we make it. We can choose to be joyful and thankful, whether we are in a palace or a prison. Our happiness in life is truly up to each one of us. And life is perfectly imperfect, just the way it is.

Choosing Positivity

Over the past, I don’t know, five years or so I’ve really put work into trying to be a more positive person. You see, I tend to get real negative, real quick if I don’t watch myself. 
*Side Note: I believe this is mostly due to the male role models I had growing up, which is why I believe it is SO IMPORTANT to practice and preach positivity around and to children. End Side Note*
Knowing that is my natural tendency, I try to remind myself to find the positive in each situation and person I encounter. I’m always searching for “the lesson” behind the things that happen in my life.
Even though I’ve made a habit of this, some days it just comes easier than others. For instance, Fridays. Those are usually the days where it is easy to live life light-hearted and laugh off issues. Tuesdays, for example, not so much. On days that are a little harder, I allow myself to be easily offended and absorbed by my massive problems (you know, the ones that by Friday are no more than a little pebble on the beach of life).
So what would happen if I constantly CHOSE to be positive. 
Work issue? A lesson for the future!  
Rude comment from a family member? Haha – that sounds like your problem, not mine!
Running late for cycle? Making a grand entrance!
Yes, these are little things, but when we take them to a negative place we tend to blow them up and then they may even consume our whole day. So why not chose to make life a little easier on ourselves and attempt to stay positive, at all costs?
PS – I’m writing this on a Friday, so check in with me to see how it’s going on Tuesday. : )
Happy Weekend!

Being in the Moment

Sometimes it breaks my heart to think about all of the moments in life that I have let slip through my fingers. All of those precious, special moments that I could have been taking in, living and enjoying with the people that I love. The moments when I could have chosen to see the positive and ignore whatever drama of the moment that life had placed upon me. 
But of course, there is nothing I can do about those lost moments. Instead I can only make a promise to myself that I will try my hardest to live in each moment for the rest of my life. Which is what I’ve done, time & time again.

Living in the moment is so peaceful and so fulfilling, but it is rarely easy. What’s easier (at least for me) is to let my mind get carried away. But it’s always worth it to recommit myself to the promise of living in the moment, because that’s really the only place we have any business being. 

And everywhere I turn lately, I’m getting the same message: Stop working and reworking all of the plans you have for the future in your head. Be present in the moment and don’t miss the things that are happening right now. The moments in front of you are provide all of the things that you need to get you to the future you.

Now, I don’t propose to throw the planning out of the window, but do we really need to plan every detail of our path? I mean, can we? Let’s face it, life happens when we are making plans. Life sometimes takes us places we never imagined we would go…if only we will let it.